Tuesday, May 16, 2017

let go

We all know what it feels like when you have to pick up something really heavy and move it. Your muscles ache, you're struggling to keep your grip, and it seems like those twenty steps to move that item across the room are the hardest steps you've ever taken.

And then, when you've reached your destination, you get to set it down, and it's the best feeling. It's a relief. You feel freer, you've let go.

It's easy. 


Sometimes, our own minds can be the most tangled up, twisted places in the world. I don't know about you, but my mind really never stops going. It's constantly jumping from one thought process to the next, running from idea to idea, from project to project. And sometimes, my mind isn't the nicest place. It can get filled to the brim with negativity, and it feels as though your head is about to explode. 

Thinking, thinking, thinking too much. About those people who hurt you. About those old friends who bailed. About that person who let you down. You think that you've pushed it out of your mind, and then you see something that reminds you of them, and bam. Those thoughts are back. 

And even more frequently, those thought seem to extend to ourselves. Oh, you didn't finish your novel last week like you said that you would? Failure. You got a C on that test? Oh my gosh, how idiotic of you. You fell asleep instead of finishing that blog post? Well goodness, why do you even have followers? Clearly you don't deserve them.

But those thoughts just aren't right.

All of these thoughts just get more and more pervasive, to the point that they're all that we can think about. We can't get rid of them. They're even heavier than that box, but we can't seem to let go.

And suddenly, it's not so easy. 

To forgive is defined as, "to stop feeling angry or resentful toward (someone) for an offense, flaw, or mistake." This can apply equally to others and ourselves. We have to let go of those feelings of bitterness and anger. 

But gosh, why is it so difficult? 

I think that part of it is because we all have a little bit of stubbornness to us. We feel like the person that we're angry with isn't deserving of being forgiven. We feel like we're not deserving of being forgiven. So we hold onto that box a little bit tighter, not wanting to loosen our grip. But in Christ, we've already been forgiven of everything, despite the fact that we sure didn't deserve it. So why can't we extend that same forgiveness to others? Why can't we extend that same forgiveness to ourselves? If the Creator of the entire universe can forgive you, can't you try to do the same thing?

As hard as it is, why can't we just...let go? 


Maybe you're always going to feel that little sting when you see that person. Maybe you're always going to be just the tiniest bit upset that that project didn't work out the way that you thought that it would. That's okay. That's disappointment, and it's natural. We're all going to be disappointed in life, many many times. We'll be disappointed by other people. We'll be disappointed in ourselves. But at the same time, we have to learn to stop holding on so tight to that box. To let it slip through our fingers, and let that weight fall off of our shoulders. 

To let go. 

It's not going to be easy. But man, is it going to be worth it. 

Take a breath. 

And let go.

- Grace Anne


  1. This is so good! Thank you for this <3

  2. I need things like this. I have had so many incidents where it is hard to move on and keep a bright mind. Thanks for this post. I need to throw the rock that is weighting me down off the cliff. THE ROCK haha not me

  3. I know there's a balance between letting go and holding on. If we repent of our sins, we can let them go. Thanks for sharing this post!

    1. Exactly! Once we repent, we're free. Isn't that the greatest? Thank you for reading! :)

  4. I've been working through this a LOT lately. My little anxious brain likes to run in circles so it's easy to get caught up in that, reliving everything, and letting go is much, much harder than it seems like it should be sometimes. But I've been learning that *I don't have to expect myself to let go all the way.* Sometimes letting go isn't totally forgetting that the thing happened, or never feeling hurt over it, or recovering instantly. Sometimes it's giving myself the permission to feel that thing, but not dwell in it.

    1. Man oh man, do I understand the frustration of having an anxious brain. It makes it so hard to get almost anything done, much less forgiving yourself for something. I love how you put that, though- "I don't have to expect myself to let go all the way." Because I forget that a lot. But you're so right- we can feel things. We're going to feel things. But we can't let those things take over our lives.

      Thank you for this comment, Aimee. <3 You always bless me.