changing

Watching myself change is captivating.

I’ve seen my mood change

my outlook

hope

smile

body

skin

life

I have seen the bad days turn into sunshine

and then

the sunshine be taken away by something

It’s almost scary how fast I change

One minute I feel like myself

the next I don’t know the soul in the body

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to

just be the same for a year.

To not have dramatic mood changes or

awful things happen.

I’m tired of always changing.

So I’ve learned but that’s a given

I learn when I struggle.

If change is always going to be in my life

i  think i need to accept that it’s a part of me.

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I created a folder called poems 2019 for all the feelings that arise this year. This was the second one I wote. I want to share it with you because it's something I wish I wrote sooner. 

-vanessa