Wednesday, September 26, 2018

internally battling

internal battles are the hardest to fight
they pull at my heart and play with my emotions
the fight makes me weak in the knees and dizzy in the head
the feelings moving through my body are stubborn
they whisper to stay in bed all day
and i can't shake that off

those feelings
amplify bitter songs
are mute to freckles of sunshine
pick at my nail polish

i don't feel capable to put one foot in front of the other
but somewhere deep within me i know i can

once i start moving i won't stop
i'll put it all aside
and i'll tell those feelings to get out of my way

and so i move forward fighting the urge
to stay in bed

the initial first few steps are the battle
but once that's won

the rest falls into place.

- vanessa 


  1. Thank you so much for the post. I've been dealing with a lot of internal battles, so I needed to read this.

    1. So happy to hear these words could be there for you.

  2. this speaks to me on a spiritual level. thank you.

  3. I love this! So incredibly relatable, especially for me since I struggle with severe anxiety and also for those who struggle with mental health. I’ve been waiting for a new post on Burning Youth and this was perfect. 💜

    1. Thank you so much for this comment! I struggle with the same kinds of things so I understand that it's not easy sometimes. Glad these words could be there for you.