i remember the play dates we had when we were nine
the dolls, climbing trees, and keeping secrets
'forever?' i asked
'forever.' you said
i thought it was true
they never tell you when you grow older about all the people you would lose
the ones who you know so well
become the ones who tell you that you're no longer worth
anything
i reached out my hand
i called out 'where did you go?'
i guess the stories are true
you're on your own now
and we don't talk
but i've let go of the bitterness
i pushed out the hurt
all i wanted to show you
that i'm not mad at you
and there's forgiveness waiting for you
from God and i
if you decide to ever come around
but if you don't, just know:
i forgive you
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in past months i've dealt with bitterness and hurt after a very long friendship that ended quite sadly. dear friends do know that holding on to bitterness and hurt is worse than forgiving them. it ultimately harms you more than the person you harbor the feelings for.
"Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you" - Ephesians 4:32
- JacyRayn
Oh my goodness. You snuck right into my brain for this one, my love. I'm so sorry that you've had to go through this. So, so sorry.
ReplyDeleteLove you so much, beautiful. Keep being you, because you are fabulous. <3
I'm so sorry-it's hard when friendships come to an end.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful writing with such truth.
~Mira
Beautiful beautiful words. I'm sorry to hear about your friendship, though I really admire your attitude - I understand first-hand how poisonous bitterness can be, and to be able to let go of those feelings is remarkable. <3
ReplyDeletemy goodness, truer words have never been spoken.
ReplyDeletethanks for sharing something so personal yet saturated with hope.
much love
You are a supernova, Jacy
ReplyDeleteLove you always, my Jacy 💗 and I mean that.
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful 💞✨
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