i forgive you





















i remember the play dates we had when we were nine

the dolls, climbing trees, and keeping secrets

'forever?' i asked

'forever.' you said

i thought it was true

they never tell you when you grow older about all the people you would lose

the ones who you know so well

become the ones who tell you that you're no longer worth

anything

i reached out my hand

i called out 'where did you go?'

i guess the stories are true


you're on your own now

and we don't talk

but i've let go of the bitterness

i pushed out the hurt

all i wanted to show you

that i'm not mad at you

and there's forgiveness waiting for you

from God and i

if you decide to ever come around

but if you don't, just know:

i forgive you

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in past months i've dealt with bitterness and hurt after a very long friendship that ended quite sadly. dear friends do know that holding on to bitterness and hurt is worse than forgiving them. it ultimately harms you more than the person you harbor the feelings for.


"Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you" - Ephesians 4:32



- JacyRayn

6 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness. You snuck right into my brain for this one, my love. I'm so sorry that you've had to go through this. So, so sorry.

    Love you so much, beautiful. Keep being you, because you are fabulous. <3

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  2. I'm so sorry-it's hard when friendships come to an end.
    Beautiful writing with such truth.
    ~Mira

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  3. Beautiful beautiful words. I'm sorry to hear about your friendship, though I really admire your attitude - I understand first-hand how poisonous bitterness can be, and to be able to let go of those feelings is remarkable. <3

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  4. my goodness, truer words have never been spoken.
    thanks for sharing something so personal yet saturated with hope.
    much love

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  5. Love you always, my Jacy 💗 and I mean that.

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