You Are Worth It























You are worth it.
You are worth dying for.
You are worth love, honor, and affection.

You may not believe this. You may have been told by others that you were not and would never be enough. That you always came short of the standard. That you were just taking up space, not benefiting anyone.
These words may have come from strangers. They may have come from acquaintances, people who knew you only enough to make conclusions about you without any depth of true knowledge. They may have come from loved ones, nicking the skin of your heart or piercing straight through. They may have come from yourself, which creates the worst pain because you have no one to deny it, to shield you from it. For the last five years, I have been chest-deep in self-torture, not physically, but mentally—thus I know the hopelessness, the emptiness, the loneliness that accompanies that. Only in this last month or so have I realized how dangerous self-hate is.

I almost died.

The will to live in me was simply not there; all I wanted was to be in heaven with Jesus. Because of the distance I perceived there was between me and Him, I felt that the only way that gap could be bridged would be death itself. And so inwardly, I wished to die. However, I had no idea that my body was obeying me. What an awesome body we have. The power God has woven into our bodies is almost beyond comprehension.

About a month or two ago, I had a mineral analysis done that would show me where I was deficient and recommend supplements to get me back on track. The results were staggering. My hormones and minerals were clearly in a death pattern.

I had done that to me because I had felt worthless, hopeless of being deeply loved, stuck in a mental cage I couldn’t get out of. Denying the truth of God’s deep, deep love, I instead held onto a lie that seemed more feasible, more real. But as the character Jack says in the book Crossroads by Wm. Paul Young, “Real is what you believe, even if what you believe does not exist” (47). My reality was not God’s reality. Not even close.

God sees the true you. The One He created. Just because you don’t act like your true self doesn’t change the fact that you are.

You are worth God’s pursuit.

You are worth being caught and cradled in His arms.

You are worth the great Romance.

You are loved to your very core.


- Hannah W.

8 comments:

  1. Oh Hannah, this is SUCH a powerfull message! Its really important to remember how loved we really are and how much Jesus DOES love us.
    He really is amazing.
    ~E

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    1. Esther, thank you so much for your comment. You are so right; He is amazing. I'm so glad this post moved you. It's an honor to be a fellow contributor with you!

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  2. Hannah, YOU are worth the great romance. Your gentle and kind spirit are evident to all who meet you. It is a joy to have you with us at Burning Youth!

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    1. Madeline! Thank you so much. You just about made me cry. It is a joy to be here, and I'm so glad I get to work alongside you!

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  3. Oh, Hannah. Thank you. Thank you for your words, your honesty, for being vulnerable with us. It inspires such courage in we who also struggle with self-hatred. Thank you so much <3

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    1. Ashlyn, thank you for being vulnerable with me in commenting that. It's not something we should have to hide. In fact, that's the danger in it. I'm so glad this post helped you; if you ever need to talk about topics like this, I'm available! <3

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  4. God knew you would be a bright light one day. This wrecked me for a while but I realized that it also saved your life. You heard the call to LIVE and you responded so that others can live. You are such a brave girl and I am so honored to be your Mom. Love and hugs deeply!

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