i dare you


When I was a little kid, I took piano lessons for about three years. My teacher was wonderful and when I decided to quit taking lessons, it was because I felt that I knew everything I needed to know.

It was also because I’m a rebel.

Now. That word. Rebel. What do you think of? Probably not something good. At least, not always. Rebellious behavior oftentimes leads to mistakes and misery for everyone involved – especially said rebel. But to me, rebellion means something much more.

Good, pure, beautiful rebellion is when you decide to break the rules because you’ve got a wild river surging at the gates that hold you back. I decided to open those gates.

Ever since I was a little kid, I felt called to music. When I play piano I lose all track of time (something that is nearly impossible for me.) When I sing I feel more powerful and confident and me than when I do anything else. Music is what I am meant to do.

But I knew right from the start that I was never meant to follow the rules.

The beautiful thing about art is that there’s no right or wrong way to do it. The beautiful thing about rebellion is the burning desire for freedom. For me, Art and Rebellion hold hands and kiss. They are one thing.

I never learned how to fluently read sheet music. I never learned any songs by “the great composers.” I never studied music theory. And I am certainly not demeaning any of these things – I’m just saying that they didn’t work for me.

Even as a child, when I played piano I felt something take flight inside of me. But there wasn’t any room to fly within those parameters. I wanted to let my creativity soar, but I was holding it back in a cage. A cage of rules and parameters.

So what does it mean to be resolute? For some people, it might mean persevering even through the struggle and the hard times to get to the place you ultimately want to be. And that is a beautiful definition. But for some people (like myself) that determination stems from a deeper longing – something that maybe you can’t explain. Something that doesn’t fit in a box.


I could have still persevered with my music career and played by the rules. But, to be honest, I couldn’t have. Because I know what I’m like. A rebel. And I know that I would have grown to hate those rules and those parameters. I would have hated my art. And to what purpose? Because I was afraid of what people would think of me.

“She can’t read sheet music. She never took voice lessons. She doesn’t know Bach or Beethoven or Mozart.” True. But what do I care? If my satisfaction depended on other people’s opinion of me, I would never be satisfied. No, my satisfaction is dependent on how I feel about my art. When I let my creativity freely soar – my own way – THAT is when I am truly satisfied.

So if you’re having a hard time with being “resolute,” notice the walls around you. Look closely. Are you in a box without even realizing it? Maybe you weren’t the one who put you in that box – maybe it was a friend or a family member. Maybe it was a little voice inside your head that was afraid of the consequences of being different.

I dare you to get out of that box – even just for a day. Whatever you do, let your creative spirit soar. Throw caution to the wind. Don’t care what he or she or they say about you – only one opinion matters in this world: the voice of the star-breather pulsating in your heart.

Be resolute in your dream. But first, free yourself. Find the thing that drives you to get out of bed in the morning. Then check it out to see if there’s anything you’re forcing – any walls your creative birds are bumping into as they try to taste the sky. Find the audacity to be different. Find the courage to say, “No. I don’t do it that way.” Find the rebellion to be the most liberated version of yourself.

And most importantly, eat waffles.


love,
abbiee

25 comments:

  1. What a powerful message, I couldn't agree more! I think when it comes to the art of creating, there shouldn't be any rules holding us back from expressing ourselves the way we want to :) It was so inspiring to read a bit about your story, keep doing your thing x

    Sara’sChapters

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    1. Thank you so much, Sara! I'm so happy this resonated with you. :') You're right on!! I'm so glad this inspired you! *hugs*

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  2. Thank you for this! I really, really needed to hear someone else say this. I know what you mean about being in a box. I felt that way when I did ballet. I felt so "free" when I stopped, and now I feel so free when I write.

    <3

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    1. That is such a great testimony, Audrey!! I'm all about freeing yourself to do the thing you feel you truly need. GOOD FOR YOU. *awards you waffles* Thank you so much for reading!!

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  3. ACK, ABBIE. I have no words. Seriously. (how do all the Burning Youth posts always do this to me?) Basically this was epicness and I NEEDED IT.

    Thank you thank you thank you for posting this, I loved it so much. <3

    ~ Savannah
    scattered-scribblings.blogspot.com

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    1. ASDFGHJK THANK YOU SAVANNAH DEAR. :''') that means so much to me. I'm so happy this post inspired you!! AND I KNOW RIGHT ALL THE BURNING YOUTH POSTS ARE JUST LITTTTT <3333

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  4. AHHH. abbie! this was so awesome to read, and i can totally see myself in it. i feel so free when i write and i think that's why i love it!

    thank you so much for writing this post and putting this feeling into words <3

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    1. That's so awesome, Madeline!! Freedom is where the life is found. <3 I'm so glad this resonated with you! *LOTSA HUGS AND WAFFLES* Thank you for reading!

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  5. inspiration overload right here <3

    this came at a REALLY good time for me, so THANK YOU. Following what you do best is such an important thing to remember.

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    1. ASDFGHJKL THAT MAKES ME SOOO HAPPY AUTUMN :'''') *hugs you*

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  6. This. this is so powerful. that courage part is so hard, but so FREEING once we get to it! :)

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    1. It really is challenging!! But man, it's so worth it. :') Thank you, Sami!!

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  7. bro. dangggggggggg. you're inspiring.

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  8. Dude I love this so freaking much. (I'm not a musician -- that's not my skill set -- but I had the same experience with piano, and though I don't play all the time, it's very freeing to be able to sit down and pound out what I want sometimes, yfeel?) I think it's all about finding what works for you, learning the basics and then taking your own route. I'm figuring out what works for me, what helps me grow as a writer/creative, and then I go after that instead of following "the right way to do it". :D

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    1. YAAAAAAS. <3 THIS COMMENT IS FIRE. And I totally feel about pounding on the piano however it feels good. :') Basically that's all I do muahahahem. BUT YES. OMG. YOU SAID IT. Taking your own route is seriously where it's at. ASDFGHJK YOU SLAY GIRL. Thank you so much for reading!!

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  9. Oh my goodness, I relate SO HARD to this. I took piano for a few years when I was little, and I took, like four vice lessons total, but have felt so much freedom in doing music *MY* way. It's so beautiful, isn't it? When we can freely create without the bounds of right and wrong?

    Thank you, dear girl, for this inspiring post! It meant a lot to me. <3

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    1. ASDFGHJKL THANK YOU SO MUCH AMANDA. <3 This comment means so much to me. YOU UNDERSTAND THE FEELING. Rules are so rigid and they are even worse with something creative and filled with Life. YOU GO GIRL. SET THE WORLD ON FIRE. :''')

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  10. Abbie, you are just inspiring me left and right today.

    Rebel.

    You are such a beautiful rebel, Abbie. Beautiful because you don't rebel in a way that brings other down but in a way that brings others up.

    TBH, I think I'm scared to fully embrace the art of /me/. Oh, I'm ME alright, I could never not be me, but I think that you are right: sometimes we put ourselves in boxes without even realizing it. I think I've put myself into the box of always needing to do things /right/. I don't want to be wrong in my doctrine, art, or ideas. I fear wrong to the point that I'm afraid I've missed what is right. Annndddd now I'm not making sense.

    Great post, as always!

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    1. HANNAH I HAVE LITERAL TEARS IN MY EYES RIGHT NOW. *hugs u forever* Seriously your words mean sosososo much to me I probably can't even describe it. <333 AND SAME. You are courageous and inspiring and WHAT YOU SAID THERE MAKES PERFECT SENSE TO ME. Missing what's right for fear of being wrong...daaannng I can relate so hard to that. wow. yes. THANK YOU SO MUCH <3

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  11. YES!!! I was soaring with every word you wrote, Abbiee. You really got to the heart of Art and just LIVING.

    Thanks so much, girl.

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    1. THANK YOU SO MUCH <3333 I'm so happy this resonated. :')

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  12. ABBIEE

    YOU ARE MY FAVORITE REBEL

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