I'm scared of the night



I've been hiding from the night.

Night always has a way of getting me thinking.
But I don't want to think.
I don't want to feel.
So why not just hide?

I can keep my mind busy,
Push my thoughts away,
Stay inside the protected bubble I've made for myself,
And not have to deal with it.

Right..?

It's easier this way.
Avoiding the questions that are placed in your mind.
Avoiding anything that might bring you pain.
Avoiding anything that could cause you confusion.

But that can only last for so long, can't it?

So here I sit.
In the dark.
I'm facing the night.
And I'm scared.

I don't know what I'm scared of.
Maybe it's the feelings that I don't want to deal with.
A broken heart.
Growing up.

I don't know.

But here I am.
Hanging on to Jesus.
Asking Him to hold me tight.
Here I go.

-aaliyah xx

15 comments:

  1. This was so beautiful, Aaliyah. <3

    ~ Savannah
    scattered-scribblings.blogspot.com

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  2. Beautiful. Your writing is beautiful. <3

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  3. I love this. Hanging out with Jesus, in the dark. We will never cease to be comforted and loved by Him, not matter where we're at <3

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    1. Ahhh, yes. <3 amen.

      Thank you so much for loving it and commenting, Elizabeth :))

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  4. This. This is what I've been feeling lately.

    thank you, Aaliyah. <333

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    1. I am so glad to hear that this is relevant because I was honestly really nervous about posting this, lol!

      THANK YOU!!!!! <3

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  5. Wow, look at how beautiful these words are. They express such a strong feeling in such a perfect way.

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    1. Wow, thank you so much. I appreciate your kind words more than you know!!! <3

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  6. Aaliyah I swear you somehow manage to always read my mind.

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    1. (Yet put it into words 8934918348914x better than I ever can)

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    2. HAHA WE ALREADY TALKED ABOUT THIS BUT THIS IS CRAZY. Our telepathy game is so strong wow.

      BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH, OH MY GOODNESSSS SOBBING RN

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