maybe you're right

you tell yourself 

you deserve to be hurt, 

that 

perhaps 

after all, 

you deserve 

the pain.

the blood.

and maybe you're right.

but if you are, then I deserve it too.

in fact, perhaps all humans do.

we all sin, all make mistakes, 

and we all deserve pain and death

for the things we've done.

but.

BUT.

our life, thoughts, 

they don't stop there.

for every cut you make on your body

there was a bigger, deeper one on the 

body of Jesus Christ.

for every thorn

{dark thought}

you pierce into your mind, 

there was a real thorn 

pierced into His skull.

every time you think of all the 

ways you could kill yourself,

know that Jesus died the worst

of all options:

hanging from a cross,

with nails

staked into his wrists and feet.

every time you want to cut 

your body, remember His side was 

cut open.

when your mind tells you you deserve the 

pain and blood

tell it:

"yes. perhaps i do.

but.

i don't have 

to 

endure the pain,

blood, 

misery,

feeling of shame,

hate,

+

exil,

because Jesus 

endured it all 

already, 

and He did so, so that

I WON'T HAVE TO.

He saved me from 

that life of pain, and now

I can live a life of 

peace."

Please remember this, 

tape it to your wall, 

tell your self EVER SINGLE DAY 

that Christ already endured it.

Accept His gift,

let Him clothe you in His perfection,

and let go of those unholy, evil, desires.

Let us produce flowers from our minds, 

our bodies,

not cuts.

-Eva