maybe you're right


you tell yourself 
you deserve to be hurt, 
that 
perhaps 
after all, 
you deserve 
the pain.
the blood.


and maybe you're right.
but if you are, then I deserve it too.
in fact, perhaps all humans do.
we all sin, all make mistakes, 
and we all deserve pain and death
for the things we've done.

but.

BUT.

our life, thoughts, 
they don't stop there.

for every cut you make on your body
there was a bigger, deeper one on the 
body of Jesus Christ.

for every thorn
{dark thought}
you pierce into your mind, 
there was a real thorn 
pierced into His skull.

every time you think of all the 
ways you could kill yourself,
know that Jesus died the worst
of all options:
hanging from a cross,
with nails
staked into his wrists and feet.

every time you want to cut 
your body, remember His side was 
cut open.

when your mind tells you you deserve the 
pain and blood
tell it:

"yes. perhaps i do.
but.
i don't have 
to 
endure the pain,
blood, 
misery,
feeling of shame,
hate,
+
exil,
because Jesus 
endured it all 
already, 
and He did so, so that
I WON'T HAVE TO.

He saved me from 
that life of pain, and now
I can live a life of 
peace."

Please remember this, 
tape it to your wall, 
tell your self EVER SINGLE DAY 
that Christ already endured it.
Accept His gift,
let Him clothe you in His perfection,
and let go of those unholy, evil, desires.

Let us produce flowers from our minds, 
our bodies,
not cuts.

-Eva

13 comments:

  1. amen, amen, amen from the depths of my soul. i know this like my own name. He is good. let the glory shine. xx

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    1. yes He IS good. too good for the likes of us, is He not? Amen, let His glory shine

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  2. and maybe you're right.
    but if you are, then I deserve it too.

    ...that hit me a little too hard. thanks, eva. ♥

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    1. me too, olivia, me too. you are so welcome <3

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  3. This...this is just raw truth. It's what we need. Thank you so much.

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    1. thank YOU Misty, raw truth is what everyone needs. <3

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  4. Speechless. Utterly speechless. <3 <3 <3

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  5. this is what Paul meant when he wrote about taking our thoughts into captivity; consciously reminding ourselves of what HE says about us. Because THAT is the truth. He carried away our sicknesses and our sorrows, He bore our griefs. Eva, this is a wonderful reminder ♥ written gloriously.

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  6. Oh my gosh, Eva, this is such a giant heart-punch of truth. ♥♥♥

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  7. I AM CRYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
    THIS IS WHAT EVERYONE NEEDS TO HEAR IN EVERY STAGE OF LIFE EVER
    YOU VOICE IS SO IMPORTANT ASHLY GAH <3 <3 <3

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  8. EVAAAA!!!! This was AMAZING. I am not lying when I say this was probably one of the most beautiful things I have ever read beCAUSE OF ALL THE TRUTH in it!! And ditto what Katie said about Paul.

    EVERYONE NEEDS TO HEAR THIS!!! <3

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  9. I come back to this, and again I'm reminded of his grace.
    Thanks for letting God speak big, powerful, life-changing insights through you.
    <3 <3 <3 <3

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