15,000 suns


6,500 light years from where you are right now is a star called RS Puppis. It is the brightest known Cepheids star in the Milky Way galaxy and it has used up most of its hydrogen fuel. It's getting tired, but it still burns at intervals. It pulsates rhythmically with a period of 41 days. Growing dimmer, then growing brighter. When it is at its brightest moment, it radiates as much light as 15,000 suns.

Fifteen thousand suns.
Not all the time,
not everyday,
because it can't.
It doesn't have much fuel left
but it has enough energy to pulsate.
It has enough energy to shine with the light of 15,000 suns.
It has enough light to reach the earth
6,500 hundred light years away.

I don't know much about space (however much I've geeked out over NASA since I was a little kid,) but I know one thing: space is dark. Stars that look like neighbors in a Hubble photo are actually millions of miles away from each other. There is no backup plan for a star running low on fuel. There are no other stars that can help it -- they smile briskly from light years away. But still, the RS Puppis pulsates in a 41 day cycle. Dimmer, then brighter. And at one point it shines with the light of 15,000 suns.

I don't know much about your life, but I know one thing: right now, it's looking dark. You feel lost and hollow and raw on the inside -- like you've swallowed too much sandpaper. You feel like you're running out of fuel. But you're wrong, my love. You have the power to outlast those stars around you. You have the power to pulsate a light echo that stretches across galaxies. Some days might be dimmer and some days might be brighter. But you, my love, have the power to shine with the light of 15,000 suns.

You are the world.
You are the crack in the door filled with light.
You are no excuse to stop burning and shining.

You're a star.


love,
abbiee

20 comments:

  1. omw this is amazing !!!!!! i needed to hear this. <3 love how you wove space into it. i don't know much about space either but i've always loved it! you're a star too, Abbiee, and this piece sure is a way you're shining that light. ;)

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    1. ASDFGHJKL I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY I AM SMILING SO HARD. <3333 thank you so very much Andrea :'''')

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  2. I really needed this right now. like a lot... thank you abby for uplifting my day and encouraging me so much. <3

    AND ALSO FOR USING A STAR ANALOGY BECAUSE SPACE IS MY SOUL whatever the heck that mean lol

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    1. *FLAILS LOUDLY* THANK YOU SO MUCH EVA <3333 omg space is my soul too i'm so happy you liked this post :'')

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  3. ABBIE. This analogy was so breathtaking, and your words are so powerful. This lifted my soul. <3

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  4. yes i needed this so much <3 nothing is impossible through Him.

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    1. AMEN AUTUMN <33333 omg i'm so happy right now

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  5. OOH. This was beautiful, Abbie! Thank you so much for posting it :).

    ~ Savannah
    scattered-scribblings.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank YOU so much for reading this!! EEEEP <333

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  6. Oh my goodness, YOU are a star, my dear!! Seriously though, I love this so much. <3

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    1. ASDFGHJKLKJH THANK YOU SO MUCH ABBY <3 omg i cannot even words

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  7. *is a blubbery mess of watery eyes and starlight*
    u r a super nova

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    1. U R A SUPER NOVA TOO

      *is also a blubbery mess of watery eyes because this comment*
      <3 <3 <3

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  8. NO WORDS FOR THIS AMAZING ANALOGY WOW EXCUSE ME WHILE I CRY
    You have such a way with words, man. You make everyone feel like a somebody.

    you are the crack in the door filled with light

    idk if this was meant to be a NTB reference but that alone gave me chills

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    1. YES IT WAS AN NTB REFERENCE I KNEW YOU WOULD CATCH THAT MUAHAHA :''''') WOW GIRL SO MANY TEARS IN MY EYES RIGHT NOW. YOUR COMMENT SLAUGHTERED ME. <333333 THANK YOU THANK YUO

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  9. You are such a freaking supernova, Abbie. Aaliyah literally put it perfectly- you make everyone feel like a somebody, and I love that about you. ♥

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    1. GRACE ANNE I AM LITERALLY CRYING RN <3 <3 <3

      can't handle the love
      you're a fREAKING SUPERNOVA TOO SO THERE

      *hugs you tight*

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