we are louder



I was in the backseat. I think I had earbuds in. I think my head was resting on my fist as I watched the blurry trees doing their blurry tree thing out the window. My heart was tossing back and forth with thoughts and bittersweet memories and aches. I remember praying, in a silent kind of way. The kind of prayer that is unspoken yet louder than your head can handle.

I started thinking about the music in my head and how we connect with it. How we can feel the lyrics and relate to them, and how through them, sometimes, we can find healing. How, if we choose, we can use the energy inside of us-- the words, to ignite the light within us. We can find solace, and solidarity. We can be made stronger. But there has to first be lyrics that are brave enough to tell us that they are with us, and that we are not alone, and that there is, in fact, more. 

"Why don't you write about that? Write about what's inside of you."

Those were the words the inner voice seemed to speak into my heart that afternoon, in the backseat while I watched those trees go by. It was a coin dropping. It was a yes. A great big yes, and an affirmation that there was a need inside of me to be braver and bolder and louder. I wanted a community, a space, a reaching out and holding of hands and singing of the same song. Because we are in this together. It was an idea that would morph into late night talks with my sister, that would turn into collaborating with writers and artists and souls that are beautiful beyond measure, it would turn into this. This right here.

I don't want to feel alone. I don't have to feel alone. And you don't have to feel alone either. None of us do.

There is more. There is light.
we are alive, we are beautiful
we are fighters.
We were "born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us."

It's so easy to feel like you're alone with the voices inside of your head-- like you are the only one who hears their volume. Like you are the only one fighting them in the dark of the predawn. But actually we all hear the voices. We all lie awake at three AM sometimes, with a raging heart and sweaty palms--

We all hear them.
And yes, they are loud, but we?

We are louder.

We are BURNING YOUTH.





love,
kate



26 comments:

  1. AGH! I love this!!! So so so true. It speaks to my heart.

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  3. *blesses this post and everything about it* *also flails*

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  4. Ahhhhh Kate — somehow you put words together for feelings I didn't know existed until you wrote about them. This is magic, and I am SO FREAKIN EXCITED. #wearelouder :)))

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  5. *TOSSES WAFFLES AND CONFETTI AND UNICORNS*
    yes one can toss unicorns don't ask how ok

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  6. Ooops it looks like I just copied!(I promise I didn't guys sorry) Yeah, this is awkward. But that's me lol

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  7. THIS IS NOT THE MOMENT ITS THE MOVEMENT I AM SO FLOORED BY THIS AGH YES JESUS WOO

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  8. Love love love this!!! <3 :D -Abbie C.

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  9. I cannot I cannot I can't I'm just so blessed to be a part of this. ❤️

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  10. I can't tell you how much I love the imperfectness of this raw blog! So beautiful and inspiring!

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  11. I cannot handle how excited about this project I am.
    what a beautiful space.
    what a beautiful thing.
    I love it.

    Randy Abby
    WAKE ME UP Blog

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  12. I am so excited for this!! Those pictures are gorgeous, wow! and the writing here, and everywhere on this site, so powerful. Can't wait to see how this project grows!

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  13. I loved this Kate! <3
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  14. Very encouraging! Thanks for sharing. ^ ^

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  15. I got chills reading this. I love the way you write - so visual and sensory. And what you said about how we can find healing in lyrics is so on point. I feel like I connect God best when I'm singing to Him, even if that in itself is a broken song. So excited to see what God does with this site, this ministry. Very jazzed! :-)

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  16. *sits in awe for a full minute* Kate, you have captured the wild things called words and harnessed them to make something beautiful. I get chills reading your writing, and I'm so glad that you made this blog. People like you all, coming together and sharing your talents to glorify God and do good in the world inspire me and give me hope. Thank you for what you do.
    <3
    Lizzy

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